The only good thing about hitting rock bottom is that it can't get any worse. I think that pretty much says it all. Or does it?
I recently downloaded Phil Collins' audio book titled Not Dead Yet. I had tried to read the ebook version on my iPad, but as much as I love Phil, I still couldn't seem to focus. That's the problem with reading for me now. I can't focus. If it's a traditional book my mind wanders. If it's an ebook I naturally want to switch to something else - a game, a message, a website.
But an audio book is different. I've listened to podcasts for years, so I'm accustomed to playing something non-musical while I drive back and forth from work. I feel that this audiobook experience deserves its own post, but I wanted to mention it here because Phil talks about the inspiration behind many of his most popular hits... and it's rarely good inspiration!
This probably explains why I've always connected with his music. He writes from the heart, about the heart. And we all know that the heart is a messy place.
That's what I need to start doing again. I need to start writing. Good. Bad. Ugly. Hideous. Doesn't matter. I need to get back to my core strength, which always used to be writing. I could tell a story. I could captivate my small audience. And it almost always stemmed from some event in my life. I need to get back to that. I need to find that person again. There's no lack of inspiration.
I need to tap into that again.