I applied for a new (internal) job yesterday. I’ve been at the same position now since the fall of 2004, and after 5 years, I think that it’s time to look for a new challenge.
The previous 5 years have been filled with all sorts of ups and downs, and it’s obvious that changes are coming to our organization. As low man on the seniority totem pole, I often feel as though I’m walking around with a large target on my back. It’s just the nature of the beast. When changes come, they start at the bottom. I accept that. I’d prefer to have any change be one of my own choosing, rather than the tap on the shoulder that I’ve already experienced in the past. That’s unsettling.
October is a difficult month. It’s starting to get noticeably colder outside. I drive to work in the dark. I leave work with darkness creeping in quickly. It won’t be long before I don’t see daylight at all if I’m working day shift. I have many sentimental memories from last October on my mind. It’s quite conceivable that the next tap on my shoulder will be to tell me that I’m going to one of the groups that is growing, that I’d absolutely rather not end up in. It’s time to go.
So we’ll just have to wait and see.