I Think I Can… I Think I Can…

There’s Someone For Everyone

Published August 8, 2016 - 0 Comments

It’s been a long time since I’ve written anything in the Life category.  Hell, it’s been a little while since I’ve written anything at all here.  But the Life category tends to be moments where I turn the blog a wallowing sinkhole of self-pity.  I think I’ll trademark that.

This time will be no different.

A co-worker said to me today “You’ll find someone.  There’s someone for everyone.”

It was meant to be a pleasant observation, but this person doesn’t know me at all.  Doesn’t know the fuckups that I’ve had over the years.  The pain I’ve caused.  The people I’ve hurt.

I had someone.  Hell, I may have had THE one!  Someone who made me laugh.  Someone smart.  Someone caring.  Someone who embraced my children as if they were her own.  Someone who defended me when I didn’t deserve it.  Someone who saw through all of the pain I carried with me and believed that she could change me.

She was wrong.

There’s only so much a person can take before they give up.  There’s only so far a person can be pushed before they have to put themself first.  Over and over I tested those limits.  And then some.

looking-for-a-therapist-photo2And congratulations.  I finally succeeded in pushing her away.  I win. What’s my prize?
Emptiness.

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